展覽介紹 | About the Exhibition

文/藝術家倪瑞宏

『有沒有可能我現在只是在扮演一個我想像成功的藝術家?』

展覽標題取名為:藝術家的心願,是從1958年台語歌手陳芬蘭所唱的歌曲「孤女的願望」得到靈感,我就如同歌曲中那個到處問路人的少女心境重疊,想要知道是否有一日成為真正的大藝術家後, 總會得著心情的輕鬆?這也許是藝術家最大的心願吧?

從《仙女日常奇緣》出版之後,仙女時常在接受媒體採訪,與受邀去上藝術生活主題節目時內心對自己產生的質疑,是否此刻的我也在繼續加強對大眾販售一種關於藝術家的奇觀想像?

為了釐清問題,我決定先暫時停止和我合作了兩年的畫商一段時間,他用質疑的口吻問我說:「我認真問你?你還有要繼續當藝術家嗎?」這個問題讓我們彼此都陷入了靜默,我表面上回答他說,當然呀!不然我要做什麼? 但我的內心卻有種強烈不踏實感,因為我也不是很肯定我們兩個彼此理解的“藝術家”指的是什麼?他是作品產量穩定,擁有畫廊代理經紀約?還是被獲選入重要雙年展?又或是拿到夢幻城市駐村機會?與時尚品牌的共同發行聯名商品?還是他總是疲於奔命各種大小藝術節,和補助申請的截止日期?這些問題困擾著我,並且在《仙女日常奇緣》出版之後,時常在接受媒體採訪,與受邀去上藝術生活主題節目時,我很常分不清楚拿著麥克風的我是不是只是在表演一個成功的藝術家?滿足外界對一個藝術家的所有投射,漸漸地這個人格開始和我分裂,我脫下表演服,站在一旁看著她:妳現在真的看起來是一個好的藝術家了。

我在這次「藝術家的心願」展覽將分為四個篇章,由2013年出道作品《閃亮人生抽籤機》開場,轉身十年後在英國駐村的回程的轉變經歷、接著進入粉紅色迷你的回顧展客廳,觀眾可從半透明玄關櫃中取出藏品閱讀,再回到主展場大廳,欣賞記載一則模仿廟宇彩繪磁磚的藝術家傳奇故事,將藝術奉為某種信仰,是口也同時將自身可能凝固住,只為成就幻象?

"Is it possible that I am merely playing the role of a successful artist in my imagination?"

The exhibition, "The Artist's Wishes," draws inspiration from Taiwanese singer Chen Fen Lan's 1958 song "Orphan Girl's Wishes." My journey resonates with the song's narrative — a girl who continually asks strangers for directions, symbolizing my quest to understand if attaining true artistic greatness would bring inner peace. This aspiration perhaps encapsulates the ultimate dream of an artist.

Since the publication of Fairy's Daily Miracles, I often find myself grappling with doubts during media interviews and guest appearances on art and lifestyle shows. Am I, in these moments, perpetuating a spectacle of the artist, selling a fantastical image to the public?

To address these concerns, I decided to halt my collaboration with the art dealer I had worked with for two years. He asked me, "Are you serious about continuing as an artist?" This question plunged us both into silence. Outwardly, I replied, "Of course! What else would I be doing?" Yet, inside, I was grappling with a profound unease. I wasn't exactly sure what either of us truly meant by "artist." Did he mean someone with a consistent production of works, represented by galleries? Someone who is selected for major biennales? Offered residency opportunities in dream cities? Collaborating with fashion brands? Or constantly juggling various art festivals and grant application deadlines?

These questions haunted me and became more pronounced after publishing Fairy's Daily Miracles. During media interviews and appearances on art and lifestyle shows, I often questioned whether I was merely performing the role of a successful artist, fulfilling every external expectation of what an artist should be. Gradually, this persona began to diverge from my true self. I would step out of my performance attire and observe her: "You really do look like a good artist now."

The exhibition "The Artist's Wishes" is presented in four sections, starting with my debut work, Life's Shiny Lottery Machine, from 2013. It then transitions into the transformation I underwent during and after my residency in the UK ten years later. The journey continues into a pink, mini-retrospective living room, where visitors can read collections from a translucent entrance cabinet. Returning to the main hall, the exhibition showcases an artist's legendary tale mimicking temple ceramic tiles, treating art as a kind of faith. But does this also mean solidifying myself solely to fulfill an illusion?

《藝術家的心願》倪瑞宏個展
The Artist's Wishes:NI, Jui-Hung Solo Exhibition
2024.03.14 - 06.14
週二至六11:00-17:00,國定假日休展 | 11:00 to 17:00, Closed on National Holidays
藝文中心五樓 藝態空間
Art Gallery, 5F of NCCU Art & Culture Center

展覽開幕 |Opening Reception
2024.03.16 Sat
(六) 15:00-19:00
藝文中心五樓 藝態空間
Art Gallery, 5F of NCCU Art & Culture Center
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藝術家深度分享會 | Artist Deep Dive Session
2024.03.20 WED
(三) 19:00-21:00
藝文中心五樓 藝態空間
Art Gallery, 5F of NCCU Art & Culture Center
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《春光無限好,把握時間》花磚工作坊 | Seize the Moments of Spring: Hand-Painted Tile Workshop
2024.04.20 SAT
(六) 13:00-17:00
藝文中心四樓  藝心坊
Yin-Sin Studio, 4F of NCCU Art & Culture Center
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工作坊報名 深度分享會